In the Dumps

I'm confused.

I know we can't trust our feelings 100% of the time.  I know that it's much better to run with what we "know" and not what we feel.  I like to think I'm not run by my emotions...and then this month hits.

I have NO idea what's gotten into me.

About 6 weeks ago I decided to go see a nutritionist to get some help with "my face" and some other minor annoyances.  I was so excited to get started and felt that for the most part I'm a healthy individual.
I was relieved to hear that I just needed some minor hormonal tweaks and that it'd all even out.  The acne seemed like a reasonable fix too and I was all in (for the most part) even after hearing encouragement to be Gluten & Dairy Free.  (Hey, I am when I am and not when I'm not...LOL)  It's a goal, right?!?  I'd hate to become perfect all at once!

Then this month hit and I have been so across the board and mostly down in the dumps it's not even funny.

I've been depressed before, I've started on that path of self-pity until I hit that last little rock and begin tumbling down in a spiral.  This time feels different.  I feel like I have no reason to be.  Everything is fine.  If I'm honest with myself, everything is great!  Well, mostly anyway.  Of course there's always room for improvement, but my husband and I are great; I am FINALLY doing what I've wanted with my life; etc!

I keep stopping to ask myself if I'm missing something, if there was something else I was supposed to do?

....

And that's what comes from it, nothing.

I'm hoping to pull out of this funk, cause I can assure you it's no fun.  I see a life out there for me.  I'm not sure if it's missed expectations, the "little" stress of bills/income/etc. or what.  I usually expect some form of looming junk around my birthday but this year was a bit different.  I don't think it was related at all.  I think, to some extent at least, I've come to terms with my birthday.  Don't even get me started there!

I did have a thought come to me this morning that I need to do something about.  I know and have heard it said that when a person starts to get this way they should do things for other people.  It's been a while since I've done an official missions project...I hoping that by connecting and doing that I'll be refocused.  And it'll be completely alright with me if it's not on myself!